Anything that gets our blood racing is probably worth doing

I have been having this enormous adrenaline rush in my body for the last few weeks and even though I slightly know what the reason for it is, I still think there much more behind it.

It feels like I'm living on the edge, being in a roller coaster that has endless ups and down. Several times a day I experience that feeling of going up and down. It is exciting though and maybe sometimes it is better just to accept it and keep enjoying the ride instead of looking for reasons of why things are the way they are.

“Life is like a roller coaster. You can either scream every time you hit a bump or you can throw your hands up in the air and enjoy it”

This state that I'm in might be disturbing or weird for outsiders because sometimes it looks like I am completely disconnected from reality, acting impulsively, flying around like a butterfly.
Sometimes I get being told that I shouldn't stress out this much and that I just need to relax which is completely understandable from their point of view. But as long as the ride is still enjoyable, as long as the ride is still going, I don't see any reason to stop.

Maybe it's not even a roller coaster ride, but just having a messy head that is floating somewhere, just dreaming. Maybe I just get hit by reality every now and then which causes the rush of adrenaline. Or maybe it is just who I am. Maybe this is life!

 

A picture is worth a thousand words

This is how it looks inside my head right now

This is the experience that I'm craving for currently

This is the city I'm dying to travel to (Istanbul)

This is what I'm scared of

This piece of work fascinates me

This is what I'm proud of

Say no to anorexia campaign

Every now and then this anti-anorexia campaigns come up who are promoting a healthy size and are trying to fight the pro-ana websites. A good thing one might say, but every time I come across these adds, this huge rage inside me rises and all I can think is: 'You campaign-makers have no idea what this whole disease is about!'

 When I read the title of the campaign 'say no to anorexia' I'm wondering how you can say no to a psychological disease! I have seen campaigns who tell you to say no dementia or cancer, but these are campaigns that support people who are suffering from them.
What happens with the anorexia campaign is that these is absolutely no compassion towards people who are actually suffering from anorexia.
I think by now most of us know that anorexia or any eating disorder of its kind is not about how thin you are. Becoming thin is one of the physical and visible outcomes of the disease, but in the end it is all about control or a coping mechanism.

So I would say, at least change the name of the campaign 'say no to pro-ana or thinspiration' but even then would this help? Would this add scare people off from pro-ana? I highly doubt so. These girls (or boys) want to look like the real-life models they see in pictures (which most of the time are photoshoped) who look glamorous and not like sketches.

To keep young people away from the pro-ana sites, I would say, focus on the issues they are facing (insecurity) and try to emphasize on it and put a positive spin on it. The Dove campaign which focuses on the beauty of each individual and which tells you that size does not matter!

My final message to those campaigns is: get your research right before you publish these kind of campaigns. To everybody who calls sometimes calls someone an anorexic: do some research about the disease to know what you're talking about. And if you still don't understand, experience it to finally know what it is about.
And finally to everybody who glamorises being thin: one day you will find out how much you have been fucking up your body and that life is so much bigger and more beautiful than that piece and size of flesh and bones you're longing for.