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I found the love of my life: photography!

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Not me

Heartbreaks, me? Naah. That's something that wouldn't ever happen to me, ever!

Three weeks later and all I wish for, is having him back. I'm crying over him. Something I could never imagine. I swore to myself that I would never cry over some guy because they all suck.
I swore to myself that I would never open myself up to someone so that I could protect myself.

I guess the saying 'love is blind' is there for a reason. I was completely blind, loved him with all my heart, I trusted him.

I should never have done that. I should have known that he's like any other guy: shallow, not to be trusted, taking any opportunity to 'cheat'. And meanwhile, he remarked every little thing I said or did.

At least I've been honest all this time. I have no feeling of any guilt.
Karma's a bitch. He'll get what he deserves.

Impulsive impulses

Is it possible to do impulsive things without giving it a thought and regretting it later?
How does this work? Does regretting something make things OK or shouldn't I've done it in the first place? If it already happened, how can you make things ok, especially when it involves others?

My impulsive behaviour has put me into a lot of trouble.
Should I stop being impulsive? No because that's who I am and I like being impulsive, I like to surprise myself. Should I stop getting into trouble? Yes!

The reason why I think people are impulsive is because they're not afraid to take chances and it makes life fun. Often enough I can't explain why I did something though. And saying 'because I felt like doing it' is not enough nowadays.

I'm still finding a way to moderate my impulses, controlling them. But is there a middle path? Can someone impulsive be moderately impulsive? Is that still called impulsive or controlled?

The taste is not so much to see what no one has seen yet, but to think what nobody yet has thought about that which everybody sees!

Think about this one

Be what you would seem to be -- or, if you'd like it put more simply -- Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise.
-the duchess, alice in wonderland

Best wedding video ever

I just found this video:


Wow!! That's all I have to say.

I'm in love

And I can't help that feeling. It feels amazing.

I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.



When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you. When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you. When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you.


it`s the way I miss you even before you leave- when
i know i can listen to you talk all night and never
get tired of hearing your voice, it`s the way
everytime someone says your name i smile. And it`s
the way everytime i close my eyes i just think of
how much i love you.



It's funny how big of an impact you have on me. It's like when I see you, you don't even have to speak...all you can do is smile, and it can make my day, and then that's how I remember my reasons for loving you.

Hey there,

Just a quick message to say I'm sorry I'm not updating.
I'm currently in France, doing a job as a courier. It's great here.
Although I can't wait to come back home. I'll update when I get back!!

Beliefs

I really hate people who criticize others because of their religion. Telling them that what they believe or not believe in is wrong. Telling them that they should drop their beliefs or join their religion.

There is no right or wrong. What you believe in is personal. Does anybody criticize children who believe in fairy tales? Then why do we criticize people who have another belief than you do.

I hate people who do that. Whether you're a religious person or an atheist, whether you are a Christian or a Muslim or Jewish or a Buddhist. You're all the same, you're not better than a Muslim if you're a Christian. People are the same, they're equal and if they're happy with the way they are and the things they believe, then you have no right to destroy that by telling them what they believe in is wrong!!

In the end it's all about respect towards yourself and others. It's about the relationship between you and God (if you believe in a god). It's about being a good person and about having good values.
That's a message that every religion is sending out there.

My message to everybody out there is. Don't let anybody change your mind and don't let anybody tell you that what you believe is wrong. If you think you're right, even after someone tells you why you're wrong, don't feel guilty or bad. You're not a less person.
You are an individual and you are unique.
Live your life the way you want it, the way you think it's right.

see....

I'm really not too keen about men right now. I'm hurt and I hate this feeling. This was exactly why i never gave my heart away to anybody. To prevent the pain...
I want to be independent, I want to be able not to miss anyone, not to care about anybody. I want to be able not to think about anybody, not to want to be with a person I love.
I think.. that I push people away unintentionally, be a pain in the ass so that this picture in my head comes true and I can say: 'see, i shouldn't trust anyone, see people always leave'

Too bad it doesn't work like that.

be carefree from Alisa Burke on Vimeo.

Goodbyes

I never thought goodbyes could be so hard!

Sometimes I'm afraid to take chances. What if... there's always a 'what if. What if I can't? What if this or that happens? Fear.
But I have to say that it has gotten me nowhere, this fear. Most of the time it's fearing something that doesn't even exist.
So like the pictures says: 'JUMP'!! Because even though it's scary, you can't know the consequence of something before you tried. You can't know you're not good to drawing if you never tried. You can't know whether you like a country or not unless you visit the country.
So what if you can't draw? What if you don't like the country? What if.. what if?
Experience! It's all about experience! If it's bad experience, you will know that you won't ever do it again and you've learnt something new, if it's good experience, you'll know that you can do it again, or that you're good at it!

“Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.”
- Mary Tyler

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