A picture is worth a thousand words

This is how it looks inside my head right now

This is the experience that I'm craving for currently

This is the city I'm dying to travel to (Istanbul)

This is what I'm scared of

This piece of work fascinates me

This is what I'm proud of

Say no to anorexia campaign

Every now and then this anti-anorexia campaigns come up who are promoting a healthy size and are trying to fight the pro-ana websites. A good thing one might say, but every time I come across these adds, this huge rage inside me rises and all I can think is: 'You campaign-makers have no idea what this whole disease is about!'

 When I read the title of the campaign 'say no to anorexia' I'm wondering how you can say no to a psychological disease! I have seen campaigns who tell you to say no dementia or cancer, but these are campaigns that support people who are suffering from them.
What happens with the anorexia campaign is that these is absolutely no compassion towards people who are actually suffering from anorexia.
I think by now most of us know that anorexia or any eating disorder of its kind is not about how thin you are. Becoming thin is one of the physical and visible outcomes of the disease, but in the end it is all about control or a coping mechanism.

So I would say, at least change the name of the campaign 'say no to pro-ana or thinspiration' but even then would this help? Would this add scare people off from pro-ana? I highly doubt so. These girls (or boys) want to look like the real-life models they see in pictures (which most of the time are photoshoped) who look glamorous and not like sketches.

To keep young people away from the pro-ana sites, I would say, focus on the issues they are facing (insecurity) and try to emphasize on it and put a positive spin on it. The Dove campaign which focuses on the beauty of each individual and which tells you that size does not matter!

My final message to those campaigns is: get your research right before you publish these kind of campaigns. To everybody who calls sometimes calls someone an anorexic: do some research about the disease to know what you're talking about. And if you still don't understand, experience it to finally know what it is about.
And finally to everybody who glamorises being thin: one day you will find out how much you have been fucking up your body and that life is so much bigger and more beautiful than that piece and size of flesh and bones you're longing for.

"There is no such thing as a self-made man. You will reach your goals only with the help of others."

I felt like the two weeks in Ankara at the beginning of this month have changed me. They have changed my view on things, my view on people and my view on myself.
Ever since I have been back I feel that I need to renew myself. Throw out the old and bring in the new. And what more physical and tangible way there is to do this by throwing away clothes and objects, and buying new clothes and objects.

It was an impuls decision. In an hour I decided I wanted a new phone, I went to the store and 2 hours later I was the owner of a brand new phone. And it felt good you know. Yes it was temporary pleasure, but I had plans with this phone.

I made my own case for this phone which I'm so in love with. You can see the results in the following pictures:

Time heals

It's been an extreme long time since I updated here, and even though I have a lot of reasons, I shouldn't have used them as an excuse.

I have been travelling a lot for a project that I'm working on. I went to Brussels 3 weeks ago and currently I just woke up in the beautiful, warm and sunny Ankara where I'm going to stay for two weeks. Hopefully I can update with pictures every now and then.